hehehe.  has today not been cool?  i think it has.  everything that happens is muy bien.  w00t.  french speaker using spanish.  huzzah.  tired...

anyway, can't wait to meet dev's beau tomorrow.  yay!  we will have such a blast.  plus, who knows, i might see leah.  now that would be a perfect way to spend the day.

i'm going to the semi, and possibly with gage!  aint that sweet?  i already have my dress, but i think i need new nail polish...

well, have a great day.  how bout a fun piccy?

peace, love, and all that shi-stuff
~ash

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You scored as agnosticism. You are an agnostic. Though it is generally taken that agnostics neither believe nor disbelieve in God, it is possible to be a theist or atheist in addition to an agnostic. Agnostics don't believe it is possible to prove the existence of God (nor lack thereof). Agnosticism is a philosophy that God's existence cannot be proven. Some say it is possible to be agnostic and follow a religion; however, one cannot be a devout believer if he or she does not truly believe. agnosticism 83% Buddhism 79% atheism 67% Satanism 63% Islam 58% Judaism 58% Hinduism 46% Christianity 25% Paganism 25% Which religion is the right one for you? (new version) created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Overdoer. Your procrastination type is the overdoer, who agrees to more than he or she can handle. Overdoers are hard-workers and get some things done, but cannot succeed at everything. They can be hard to detect as being procrastinators, because they are always so busy doing something. They have difficulty saying saying declining people’s requests but feel resentful when the time comes to do them. Overdoer 88% Crisis-maker 75% ADD 75% Worrier 69% Perfectionist 63% Teenager 63% Dreamer 56% Defier/rebel 50% Not a procrastinator 13% What type of procrastinator are you? created with QuizFarm.com

so.....im me.  and i live life in what might be a peculiar way.(i dont really know exactly what goes on in the minds of others)  but, if you want to understand me, you must first understand my thoughts.

and now....a phsychology entry.  well, more like philosophy, but w/e.

the future.  you cant really change it.  you cant change anything, no matter what you do.  from the moment that the first slimy amoeba climed out of the cesspit of an earth, and far before, the entire future has been planned.  in fact, you could read this entry, go off and do something, and do it DIFFERENTLY then you normally would, because you had read this, and this still would have been the planned future.  you see, i was going to think of this and write an entry in my blog no matter what, you were going to read it no matter what, and that would make you do the thing the way you did it, no matter what.  a possibly helpful example-

dan is going to the refridgerator.  he is going to get something to eat.  there are four things in the refridgerator that he might decide to eat.  they are:cheese, yogurt, jello, and an orange.  can we know, before he even touches anything, which he is going to pick?  of course!

the cheese: dan is not going to pick the cheese.  this is because he is lactose intolerant, and does not want to bloat up later.

the yogurt: dan does not want the yogurt.  he had some five minutes ago, and while still hungry, doesnt want to eat the same thing twice.

the jello: dan doesnt want to eat the jello.  this is because he thinks his little brother jerry spit on it, and dan has OCD.

the orange: dan wants the orange.  he has always loved citrus fruits, and it is the perfect size for his appetite.  yay dan!

so you see, there was only one real option.  and this can be used on a smaller, even microscopic scale.  going back to the amoeba, it was meant to gain multiple cells, and have some decendants leave the primordial soup.  these in turn gained more cells, and eveolved the only way possible into the vile creatures we have today.  there is no way this could have been done differently, because that would moean that you would have to start with the fiirst atom slightly more to the left, a bit bigger, etc.  which it didnt.  and this appplies to the future.  things have only one possible way they can happen.  for example, say i brake my leg tomorrow.  it wont be because i slipped on the pool deck.  it will be because joe dropped a chair on his toe, which brought jane who was in the pool to come and see, which made water get on the deck.  then i walk in, dont look where i am going because i am talking to someone, and place my foot in the exact spot, to the atom, where i will fall this way and plummet to the ground.  not that that will happen.

i hope you have learned more, if you botheres to read all that.  any questions canbe left in the comments...

peace and love and all that shit,
becca

ok so i was glancing at the tv when all of a sudden what did i see but a comercial for a movie called constantine.  now, many off you have heard of this movie, i had , but i had forgotten.  i was actually reminded of a totally unrelated book by robin mckinly called sunshine, in which the vampire(one of two main characters) is named constantine.  now, the thing is, robin mckinly is one of my all-time favorite authors, and that is arguably my all-time favorite book.  so you can imagine my extacy when learning that it was soon to become a movie.  i even wrote an away message about it:

hey guyzz....their making a movie!  its called constantine!  i hope its like the book!  i loved the book!  one of my all time favorites!  my cousin jordana gave it to me last year for my birthday!  i LOOOOOOOVE it!  YAAAAAAY!  WOOOOHOOOOOOO!  I AM SOOO PHSYCHED!!!!

yes i am such an idiot.  a freakishly obsessed idiot.  then caro write to me:  didnt that come out a few weeks ago?

me: really *gets ready to shoot self for not knowing*

caro: yeah...*goes off on another topic*

me: *looks online to find info about movie and when it came out*  *finds out that i was totally off all along, it was a different movie, they dont plan to make a movie for sunshine, and cloud nine has suddenly become quite non-existant*  *explains folly to caro*  *sort of mentally cries to self*

hey guys!!!!

guess what?!?!  the synchro show is coming soon to a Y near you.  well, mine anyways.  so im issuing a formal invitation for anyone who wants to come.  it will be on both saturday, march 19 and sunday, march 20.  so i want you all to come and see what i do.  perhaps even decide to join *nudges psuedo discreetly.  if you were to go on staurday(starting at 6:00)  it would cost you 6$ per person(well, im assuming that you all are children/students, and if your parents want to go, its 10$ for them, seniors are 6$).  same goes for the first sunday show, which is at 2:00.  the matinee performance is at 5:30 sunday night, but it costs 10$ per ticket no matter how old or young you are.  if you want my advice, i say go to the first show.  theyre all the same, except that soloists get to swim the first and third shows, and theyre really cool.  well, just know that it will be a lot of fun, and i think that you will really enjoy it.  if you pay soon, i can probably get you the tickets to whatever show you want, but theres only 200 per show, and they sell out quickly.  c'mon guys, you know you wanna!

peace and love and all that shit,
monkeygirl

im so sorry.  ive been really mopey lately, and its dragging down the quality of my blog.  if you come back in a week or so, you may find the usual happiness that always resides in my ming.  for now please bear with the gloominess, for this oo shall pass.

on high school:
i am quite happy with most of the grades i got, like caro.  i got level one in LA, which i was sort of expecting.  im happy about the level one in SS, because that is always a good option to have open, especially since i hate that subject (this isnt even logical to me).    i am satisfied with math, i know im definately not he wiz that alexandra is (i personally think that they should make a level -3, just for her.  i congratulate her on getting into -3 every time i see her).  im okay with level one, but once again, it still keeps my options open.  there is one thing i am not satisfied with, and like caro, that is science.  i really think that he should reconsider.  ive really worked on getting good grades this year, and wish that i had known about the extra credit sooner.  i want to do biology because i think understang that will be much more helpful when im studying to be a phsycologist than earth science.  i hope i do well enough on the placement test to get in.  i probably will take french 2 next year if possible, so i can get to 5 by senior.  that would probably look good on a resume.


emily:
im deeply sorry.  i hope you will accept my appoligies if you read this, but i will try to talk to you anyways.  im very sorry about what i said about you.  it was a long time ago, i was very upset, and most importantly, i dont mean it now.  no trace of the entry in question remains, and i hope that you will forgive me.  i really dont mean it.


now my big upset for the day:
the math test.  i got a 59.  thats FAILING!  ive never done so badly in my life.  the sad thing is, it seemed really easy when we were taking it.  i actually thought i might get a grade over a 90 on this one (probably a first for me).  as if that wasnt bad enough.  let me replay a scene from math class today.

mr smith:  *puts paper face down on desk and walks away quickly*

just so's yall know, i am currently avoiding a subject.  this could be immensly difficult, as i am going to talk about it alot today.  youll see.  and if you dont, youre not who im talkin to anyways, so BUGGER OFF!!!!!!!!!  also a certain questionable entry has been deleted, as it was quite unfortunately read by the wrong people.  so heres the deal.  if you dont know why badgers are special, then STOP READING!!!!!!!!  THIS MEANS YOU!!!!!!  besides, you probably dont even care. 


so its valentines day.  one of my favorite holidays because (this again applies only to people who know about the badgers) its pretty obvious that im in it for the sweets, along with the cushy good feeling that it gives me to be extraspecially nice to people, and be generous when sharing the cavities.  its nice to be able to say "happy valentines day" and seriously mean it, because you really hope that it will be a special day for everyone.  just because i dont have a love of my life, i dont have a boyfriend, and nobody particularly likes me as more than a friend, doesnt mean that i cant enjoy this time of peace and love.  and the fact that it was SAINT valentines day means nothing whatsoever.  really.  i gave my cool friends in temple (i luv you guys so, you wer nice and you didnt even know anything was wrong, you happily returned my hugs)  candy also, cause this is america.  there is no problem with being what you are, and its okay to be more than one thing (not that i am), or just do something for the heck of it, not for its significance.  thats probably one of the few things that i do like about this country.

and if your still with me, i shall now explain why i felt the need to write all that seemingly random crap.  today i was unhappy.  there were two or three things that contributed to this.  first of all, ive been wicked tired after the synchro meet (which by the way my team did AWESOME at!)  its not that i dont love you, its just that six hours is a long car ride when surrounded by four other hot, sweaty bodies while watching movies as terrible as napolean dynomite (that movie SUCKED, i hated it)  ive been so exhausted all day, that i couldnt get up nearly any of my usually boundless energy.  then there was the unmentionable subject, which remains unmentionable, just in case)  i still thank you guys for being there for me and making me smile, whether you had any ideea or not, but also treating me normally, and not like something that needs to be handled with care.  youre great friends, mostly because not only do you not seek social advancement (which is at the heart of this current problem), but you loath and detest the subject and are content to be what you are, and keep the friends you have.  youre cool enough to talk to whomever you want, whenever you want, and theres always someone among you who is just what the doctor ordered for whatever situation presents itself in this difficult faze called life.

back to the subject at hand, i think that the fact that i had high school courses that i should take or want to take chasing each other through my heead all day, trying to get out of my subconcious into the foremost part of my brain .  it was quite distracting.  mrs darmon says i should take french two.  i want to be an author when i grow up.  i should take creative writing, colleges would like that.  i need to get accepted by BU.  my brother wouldnt understand that i was sacraficing my perfect education so that he could have the money for MIT. he may not even get into MIT.  BU is still a great school.  i should major in phsycology.  no, i should major in literary arts.  i should take extra pshycology classes.  that would mean that i have to take hard social studies classes.  i hate social studies.  grrrgh.  this hapened half the time without me knowing it, and it happenes ALL day.  ungh. 

I
I AM COOL
OH YEAH
UH HUH
DUNNO WHY
I'M WRITIN THIS
IN ME FRIENDS BLOG

BUT
I LOVE IT
CAUSE I'M COOL
OH YEEEEAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

just want to tell yall that i wont be adding much to THIS blog for a while.  i am currently so engrossed in my other blog that is linked in the profile section, that i dont have enough time for much else.  perhaps later.  but for now, dont waste your time checking here because neither of the authors feel disposed to add.  aka: just dont bother comin.

peace and love and all that shit